Date: February 16th, 2026

Therapy

Therapy has been an ordeal. Not therapy itself, but gaining access to it. Long story short, I dropped my first therapist (mentioned in a past entry) due to the company's shady billing practices.

Not long after, I found another therapist that seemed like a good fit (sadly, doesn't have extensive experience with autistic/ADHD folks), but.... insurance happened. I had to advocate for myself continuously because I was charged LARGE bills out of network. After the burning rage dissipated, I sought solutions with customer service after I cooled off. (lies, lies, lies with them..except two people)

I came out of that situation exhausted, but proud of myself for hammering the insurance company…creating paper trails, documenting calls, getting employee IDs, and gathering evidence to prove she was in network! What's frustrating was that the success was after they "reduced" my bill while still charging out of network... as if to get me to shut up and move on. They felt my wrath because I continued to fight them. I was going to report them to the state if that last effort was futile, but they must have sensed I was at my last straw LOL. I hope this doesn't happen again, but have learned a lot from this situation, and it was a......good exercise for dealing with anger.

During that ordeal, my therapist was understanding and did not cancel my reoccurring appointments, to make sure no one took my slots. I was able to see her as soon as my claim was fixed. I appreciate how she tries to get to know me, especially this early on. She incorporates my hobbies into my coping skills, and we had a show and tell with our artwork. Her homework isn't given offhandedly with no further check in like other therapists have done. It makes me look forward to seeing her every week. It's a strange feeling. I am interested in what she has to say. She also has voice that belongs in a meditation video.

Something that I find funny is that she mentioned being happy to work with someone who knows the terminology and speaks her language. I have been dropped by many therapists for being "too complex" (aka handful of physical/Mental health issues), so I had to research and try to help myself while learning therapeutic methodology and coping skills. I didn't expect that type of acknowledgement, but it was nice.

Maybe I should become a therapist..joking.

I’m hoping she sticks with me and can help me improve my life. I know change is slow, so I will wait patiently.